I don’t do that anymore

Sometimes I feel like as though I could write a book called ‘ I don’t do that anymore’ and in it, I would line the pages with all the things I just don’t do, don’t say, don’t believe, don’t profess, anymore.

I know many will come to this site and become befuddled at its contents, or rather, its lack of contents. “But doesn’t she… Where is the… Why can’t I find…” and I know that’s probably incredibly irritating, frustrating, for former clients - even de-stabilizing. Some will want to know why, why not. And I totally get it - I’ve had teachers and people I look up to change course and have felt, in the wake of it, confused and bereft. It doesn’t feel good, its like a break up of sorts and not the kind thats mutual.

It’s not you, it’s me.

Really.

I’ve changed. And while the last few years have changed us all, I’ve had things happen in my personal life that created monumental change, things I won’t discuss here, not for now anyways, but things that shifted the foundation of my life in such a way that there was just no turning back. And there was no room on the path going forward to bring any of that stuff with me.

So no, there isn’t a form to book a session. No mentorship applications, no mentions of classes or learning opportunities. And there won’t be, not for those things anyhow, ever again.

And while I am not quite ready to share my testimony, that feels to raw and tender and sweet just yet, what I will say is this:

I am a Child of God. Always have been, always will be. And in that, with Him, I know I am saved.

I walk in a peace I have not known until now. I don’t run from this to that, trying to dissect the future, trying to know the unknowable.

I reside in the knowing that I am held, that my family and I are living inside of a plan that was always for us and that there isn’t anything for me to do or be to earn that.

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are children of God. Romans 8:14